My Little Miracle

The exciting story of God's very special gift to Mama & Papa…

NAME REVEAL!!!

For those who’ve been waiting to find out her name, we are finally sharing it to the world at 38 weeks!

Here’s a short clip on our name reveal on Quackababy 2 a.k.a QB2 or Little Miss Quack. Click the image below to find out… 

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More updates on how we got her name and why in another post 😀

 

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When is my due date???

It is every pregnant moms wish to know when is her exact due date; even though it is just an estimate, having the peace to know that everyone is on the same page (and everyone means the doctor, the nurse, yourself, the ultrasound tech, etc) will really put an ease to your mind.

Well, according to BabyCentre AND every single pregnancy due date calculator online, my due date for QB2 is on Feb 10th, 2016. How accurate are online calculators? Well, I used it with Leo and my doctor then revealed the same date too, so I believe they are correct. But this time, my midwife said that it is on Feb 13th, 2016 and not the 1oth, based on her manual calculation which they add 7 days to your LMP (last menstrual period). I’ve always sidetracked her calculation coz I felt it wasn’t accurate and preferred to stick to Feb 10th. I had my final ultrasound with a gynae on Tuesday and I asked him about my due date; again. According to his calculation, he said it was Feb 13th! I was shocked. Not because I didn’t believe him but because every single calculator says 10th according to my LMP, but his and the midwifes’ says 13th. He also said that it is only a difference by 3 days, so it doesn’t really matter. True but NOT TRUE. If you’ve been pregnant, you KNOW that the last month of pregnancy has 365 days! I wouldn’t want to be overdue either, and every single day counts when you’re in the home run.

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If you’ve been in the TTC (trying to conceive) moment and you are the kinda mom that knows your cycle very well and know about fertility and conception, you will know that there are other methods to determine your due date.

  1. Using your LMP – which most doctors use and what the online calculator uses too. But I don’t know why the manual calculation and generic calculator differs by 3 days? So according to this calculation, my due date is on the 13th.
  2. Date of conception – We all know what we need to do to conceive. And I know the exact date, because we only tried once. They can argue and say that this method is not the best because sperm can live in the uterus for a couple of days and you never know when you ovulate. But my cycle is very regular and I know when I am in the fertile window. So since we only tried ONCE, I keyed in the date of conception and that had put my due date to the 7th! Now that’s a huge difference between 7th and 13th. That is 1 week ahead of what the LMP says.

In case you’re wondering why am I so anal about my due date; it is an estimate anyway. It is because I was overdue with Leo and had to be induced. That wasn’t fun at all. And at the end of pregnancy, baby is growing bigger and bigger each day. If baby gets too big, there are chances that they may now allow you to birth naturally and/or say that there are risks involved. I had to be induced with Leo because my water broke and I was overdue.

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I am only hoping that I will not go overdue this time. I don’t want to be induced and I don’t want baby to get too big, as she measures 2.7kg already. Each week they gain about 300 grams. So the remaining 3 weeks I have left means she could put on 1kg. That would mean she could be born at 3.7kgs! That’s gonna hurt… and no C section for me please! I know these are estimate figures, plus minus 10%, but still, my heart just feels kinda unsettled.

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Anyway, I just wanted to get this out of my chest. Ultimately, God’s timing is best. He knows when she will be here and she will be here when she’s ready. The only thing I can do now is to prepare my body for labor and trust that it till complete the whole process. If my body can conceive and sustain the whole pregnancy till full term, my body can birth this baby out naturally and the process will be complete. It will not fail me and it will not go haywire suddenly.

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Toddler Play Win!

Often when it comes to entertaining Quackaboy, we’re out of ideas to keep him busy. I stumbled upon a Facebook article on toddler play ideas and thought to give it a try!

One of it was easy as we had the items in our house already.

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CARDBOARD BOX.

A huge one. We gave him markers and colored pencils to draw on it while sitting inside. And Daddy added to make it look like a mini spaceship too.

Well, it was very successful and he was playing in it for over an hour. And the next day, and the next day too…

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From a spaceship, he made it into a car, and then into a house.

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Happy toddler = Happy parents!
(Dad gets to workout, Mom gets to make dinner, and Grandpa gets to rest)

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After the Christmas season, and playing with his Xmas toys, he has forgotten about the box. But we’re okay with that because any toy, over time, will become boring or too common for him. We have been saving an even bigger box for him to play one day when he gets really bored or when he just needs new stimulation.

Maybe by then time QB2 comes, the bigger box will be useful to keep him occupied a few hours! 😀

If you haven’t tried this with your toddler, GIVE IT A GO! 

Let me know how it turned out!

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32 Weeks Bumpdate + Belly Belt!

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32 weeks and 8 more to go! WOW time has really flown by with this pregnancy. Honestly, it feels fast but slow at the same time. I can’t wait to meet this baby girl and have everything almost prepared for her arrival; almost. 8 weeks feels pretty fast if you look at it, but 2 months feels kinda far away still. Well, I certainly don’t want her to come early, so the Christmas season and holidays is keeping me busy and excited and not thinking about how slow February will come.

Recently I have been using the Belly Belt with my jeans.

p/s – I am not affiliated with Belly Belt or sponsored in any way for this review. All opinions remain my own.

I had bought this item when I was pregnancy with QB back in 2013, but never really used it much. I gained a lot more weight with him and my non maternity pants just didn’t fit at my thighs and legs. But this time, my pre pregnancy jeans fits perfectly with this belly belt and I am pretty happy that I don’t have to buy any maternity pants. The only maternity bottoms I bought were 2 pairs of shorts which was on sale for 50% at Ginger Snaps. And… I wear shorts more than anything else because the weather here is crazy!

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Just thought I’d share some photos of this Belly Belt an how it looks like on me and how it fits perfectly. It comes with 4 extension elastics/belts and 3 pieces of different colored fabric to match your pants. So far I’ve only used the shorter band and the black fabric.

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From the front – maybe it’s my camera angle? But I am happy to see that my thighs are not gigantic and I think I look good here :p

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Sideways – Whoaaaa, my butt doesn’t look that huge, really.

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My jeans fit below my belly button, almost near the pelvic joint.

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And nope, my belly button does not pop out. I’ve a pretty deep belly button! From the front – I just can’t zip and button as pre pregnancy would, but the belly belt helps to hold it together like an extension and your panties are covered with that piece of fabric inside.

Please note that I am never comfortable to show off my bare belly like this and in fact, I’ve never done it before! I don’t have a pretty belly to show off anyway. But I decided that I will share this great product and show you guys whats REAL. Stretch marks, fat deposits and whatnot. I have have courage now.

The only thing about using this product is that your shirts has to be long enough to cover your jeans. Or this part of your lower belly/crotch will be exposed. Thankfully, most maternity and nursing tops have a good length to them. So glad that this product has been put to good use this pregnancy. And I’m hoping that my thighs and butt will not get any bigger or else I can’t fit my jeans altogether!

Did you use any maternity products like this or specifically bought new pants during pregnancy? Do share with me what awesome buys you had!

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Baby Moon 2015

They always say you should go for a Baby Moon before the new baby arrives, and before adding another addition to the family, you should enjoy whatever time you have left with just the current family. Because it’s all gonna change forever after that.

We were so blessed by our aunt & uncle who sponsored us a trip to Port Dickson over the weekend. We were supposed to go for this trip since July or August as a short break for me; as I was expressing how tired and exhausted I was over Facebook and my aunt took note of it. I was then still in early pregnancy and was feeling all the hormonal roller coaster and just really needed a getaway. Then, there was the haze that took over 2 months to clear, so we couldn’t really schedule the trip. Finally, we decided to use it as our Baby Moon since I am in the home run now and our finances did not allow us to travel anywhere further.

This trip meant a lot to us because it means that we have ‘us’ time and I don’t have to think about chores and work for a moment. We never really get that because I live with my dad in law. And most of the time, we have dinners together and it is never just ‘us’ at home. There are a lot of challenges a when you’re not living with your ‘own’ family; if you know what I mean. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not entirely a bad situation, but it challenges me especially after having kids.

The days when we’re alone, I also realized that we behave differently; at least for me. I am more calm, more patient, and more gentle I’d say. Sometimes at trying times, it makes me raise my voice, having to stand up and prove myself, constantly feeling like a lousy mother, and just bringing me down. And it brings out the worst me in, which is not the real me. It’s really, really hard and there are days I only cry because I know that I am not a bad mother and I can handle whatever the situation. I just want to be me. The real me. And I am only able to be that when we’re a family with just ‘us’.

Anyway, those aside (and maybe in another post when I get the courage to share), we really enjoyed ourselves! Little did we know we will enjoy Port Dickson as much as this. I was never a fan of the beaches in West Malaysia, but this time was different. Maybe because we had QB with us and it was his ‘first time’ actually playing on the beach. We did go to Boracay last year when he turned 1, but he was too young to really do anything or remember anything. This trip has stored many memories in me and it is one that I will never forget.

God has been so good to us. Things we never would’ve thought possible came through and He is forever faithful. The weather was great and the whole trip was eventful. Psssssstt – I even recorded a name reveal video! Not sure how we are gonna announce it, but it’s very exciting!

Here’s some photos to share our trip with you guys and I can’t wait for the next family trip; whenever it may be; with QB2.

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Waking up to this silhouette was one of the best feelings ever.

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QB wasn’t so sure about the beach at first. He didn’t wanna touch the water.

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Goofy family photo!!!

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All ready for the beach with his bucket of sand toys!

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A little more brave the next day! And loving the Applecheeks swim diaper.

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He definitely loved the sand and helped us dug a hole to sit in it.

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I love this photo of the boys in my life.

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Beach time is also ice Popsicle time!

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My 30 week belly. With battle scars. And no thigh gap. LOL.

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Real and raw. A photo with my little lion! I love you, son!

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Picnic breakfast at the beach!

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Daddy dug a hole to sit inside to watch the waves. Pure bliss ~

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One of our favorite photos of QB! He loves the Trunki and is looking forward for our next family trip too!

We all came back slightly sunburned, but Daddy got it worse. I came back with a bruise on my left arm. No idea how I got it. And I had 2 sand fly bites on my face! Not exactly the best place but it’s been a week, and getting better. Beware of sand flies though, if you’re travelling to PD 🙂

 

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It’s A… and mama’s intuition is right!

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Ahhhh, sorry for not updating you guys. Actually I’ve written posts all along but didn’t post it coz for some reason, I could not log into my WordPress account AND my computer is broken. Well, to be specific, my adapter isn’t working and I had to share with hubs.

Anyway, I also realized that the longer I do not update, the more I have to say and my posts will be like an essay. So from today, I shall update more often (say maybe twice a week? 😮 I better keep my word. Or at least once a week!) and I will try to keep them short and straight to the point!

So first things first…

I will be 29 weeks tomorrow! It’s crazy right? I can’t believe I am in the 3rd trimester already and definitely feeling all the discomfort and slight anxiety. And just to update you guys, we are having a GIRL!

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Honestly, I think I didn’t really have a preference. Why? Because I didn’t want my baby to feel rejected even before he or she is born just coz I really wanted a girl or a boy. So I told myself (and hubs too) that whatever it is, we are so thankful! And to have another boy is awesome! When I look at Quackababy, he is the cutest lil thing and having another of him is awesome! Also, we don’t need anything extras if it was a boy. We have EVERYTHING from clothes to diapers to toys.

But having said that, somehow, deep down in my heart, my intuition tells me that I was having a girl. Even before the scans (which we only found out around 20-21 weeks because I wanted a 99% sure answer) and what could’ve been, I somehow “felt” that we’re having a baby girl. First of all, I was very sick. I think I only felt better around 18-19 weeks along. With QB, I was not really sick at all. In fact, I remember having a pretty good appetite, my hair was thicker and fuller, my skin was good, and nothing really bothered me. This time, my hair is normal, my skin breaks out sometimes, and my appetite is on and off. But of course, some of my cravings did make me doubt my intuition coz they were similar to QB’s pregnancy.

So 29 weeks… and I have 11 to go. Lot’s of stuff has to be done by then. I am definitely feeling the need to nest. I am packing and arranging and preparing all the laundry, and even thought of packing my hospital bag LOL.  I have an appointment this coming Friday along with my 2nd glucose test (yuck!) and will keep you guys updated.

Seriously tho… I have lots to talk about!

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18 weeks & God’s favor is upon us!

I will try to keep this update short and straight to the point as much as possible. But before I do that, I will have to explain a little bit of our situation so that you’ll understand better.

This is actually my 3rd pregnancy. I had a miscarriage with my first back in 2012, then Leo was born in 2013, and now I’m at 18 weeks, expecting our 2nd miracle in 2016. With my first and second pregnancy, we visited private hospitals and got our prenatal care at the private sector. Why did we choose that? Honestly, because we didn’t know any better. All of our friends seem to recommend certain hospitals and doctors and shared their experiences with us. So because if that, it was only natural that we choose wherever we want and where we felt most comfortable. Here’s the list of hospitals that we’ve visited and have a prenatal record:

  1. Assunta Hospital – I was here with my first pregnancy and doc was recommended by a friend.
  2. Columbia Asia, Puchong – I came here for a second opinion when the doc at Assunta told me that our pregnancy was not successful. I also did a D&C here in 2012. Doc also recommended by a friend. Check out blog post here.
  3. Pantai Bangsar – When we found out our little miracle was here, we immediately checked in here and went to a doc that a friend recommended, again. I loved this doc very much and he was very informative. Everything went well, until he told us that he’s retiring and will not be able to deliver our first miracle.
  4. UMSC – We came here after a long research and decided to try this doc. I googled about him and decided to take the chance. Doc from Pantai said he is good and we should proceed. UMSC is the private side of PPUM, which is a teaching hospital and this doc that we’re seeing is a professor too.

Leo was born at UMSC in 2013 and we were glad that things went pretty well in this hospital. Birth story here. Not really a whole bunch to complain about but we accepted it and we were just thankful that Leo was healthy and there was nothing major to be overly concerned about.

This time, I decided to take a big chance to get my prenatal care at a government clinic and birth in a government hospital. Along the journey of motherhood, I met other new mothers too and they shared their experiences with govern hospitals. I honestly never knew how to start or register in a govern clinic, as to private, we literally just walk in and chose our doctor. Long story short, I decided to give it a try. There were some factors that helped me make this decision:

  1. Finances.
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    Both of us were working full time during our first and second pregnancy so money was not really something we were overly concerned about. Of course we chose UMSC because it was cheaper than most hospitals, but it was more of a necessity and we didn’t really have a choice. But this time, I am no longer earning a fixed income where we can be comfortable anywhere. In fact, finances were tighter than it has ever been. We’re going through a wave in our family. So choosing free prenatal care was what seems natural to me. I did not have to pay at my appointments and I have prenatal vitamins for free.  And we are saving thousands of dollars here. I would rather spend that money on good food/nutrition and stuff we need for the new baby (be it clothes, diapers, furniture, etc.) or even save it for organic baby food later on.
  2. Government hospitals support natural births and breastfeeding.

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    This was a huge one for me. In the “supernatural” world of gentle birthing and breastfeeding, we see many extremes. Most of them will be pro natural births (no vaginal exams, no Pitocin, no epidural, no episiotomy, delayed cord clamping, immediate skin to skin with baby, no baths for baby, etc). Pro breastfeeding (no formula, no bottles, no pacifiers, breast crawl, no pumping, etc). Uhhh, yes. Very extreme indeed. I’m just saying what I know and have read. I’m not against it and I am not super pro about it and I am not judging anyone. I did have everything naturally and smoothly with Leo when he was born. Birth and breastfeeding was great for us. It was great because I’ve done a ton of research on everything before I decided my birth plan and what I wanted. I was very well equipped and I am so thankful that we didn’t go through any major hiccups. Please don’t get me wrong, I am not saying that birth or breastfeeding was easy. I’m just saying that it went well for us and I knew 100% what I was doing.

    This time, I’ve done and still doing my research on how much was it to birth in government hospital vs private and the numbers are very extreme. This prompted me even more to have the baby in a govern hospital. You rarely read about “emergency C-sections” happening in government hospitals. Why is that? Because there is nothing emergency about it. I will share my research about this in another post. So yes, govern hospitals only do natural births unless you have a certain condition or you already had a precious C-section.

    Govern hospitals are also pro breastfeeding. They are not equipped with “emergency” formula. I was shocked when UMSC gave me a form to fill and it had a box where I had to tick if I wanted formula for the baby or not. The nurse asked me “what if I didn’t have milk and the baby is crying?” I said “I will definitely have milk for him!”. Every mother will have, and it’s all in your willpower to believe that and to trust that your body knows what to do. Educate yourself and to do lots of research before you birth. Knowledge is power when it comes to breastfeeding. Again, I am not against formula. If there is a need, please go ahead. If you need a break, go ahead. It is there as an option to help mothers. This too, I shall share my research and thoughts on in a different post.

  3. Thorough checkups and waiting time.

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    Prenatal care is done at the Klinik Kesihatan, and not the hospital. So far, my experiences with the nurses were positive. They we’re friendly and informative with all the questions I asked and even helped me decide which hospital I can birth at. The usual time spent at the clinic is around 1-2 hours. Today I’ve only spend an hour (inclusive of parking, taking a number, taking regular tests, seeing the nurse and leaving afterwards). On some days when there may be more people, I’ve never waited longer than 2 hours, for everything done. I’ve spend a very, VERY long time at those private hospitals listed above, probably half a day! I can guarantee most women you ask, they will agree that waiting time is long and often; taking a number doesn’t really mean anything! I also like the fact that I know the results of all the tests done at each visit and I am aware if there may be any problems because it is all written in the pink book. You get to have a copy and so does the clinic. In private, I don’t remember having any record in my hand, except the ultrasound scans. Everything was with my doctor. There is always an advantage go this. Say I decided to enter private halfway through or decided last minute that I wanted to switch; my records are all with me. Oh, and I do not have to pay for anything.

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    I am so grateful to hear this awesome news from the nurse at my appointment today. We were planning to go for a detailed scan for the baby sometime around 20 weeks. This is for my peace of mind. If you can relate, I often get a sudden anxiety of how the baby is developing. Checkups at the clinic do not include ultrasounds. Of course we can do it anytime in private clinics but I try to avoid having scans so many times as it is not necessary. A detailed scan is where they scan the baby to check for development abnormalities (brain, heart, liver, kidney, etc.) Initially we were going to do it at FMGC which is a private fetal medicine practice but I did not make an appointment because the price was a little too high for us. It was going to cost RM500 for the detailed scan. Today I found out that usually they cost around RM300. I guess the doctors at FMGC cost more because they are practicing at Pantai, Bangsar and because they have great reviews and experience. Today, the nurse told me that there is a free detailed scan given to govern clinic patients at a diagnostic center. It is a learning school for trainee radiologists to learn/practice and their job is to look for abnormalities in ultrasounds. I was thrilled and immediately felt that God was answering my prayers. The nurse also said that the scans are done by the sonographer and if there was anything wrong, we will be referred to the doc at the hospital. I am sure at private fertility clinics; the scans are not done by the doctor themselves too. I was relived and felt that this is what we are going to do. Again, if we were not satisfied by any of the services or scans, we can always go to FMGC later on.

    My heart is so relieved by this news and I am so grateful for this opportunity. I know that God is in control of everything and His favor is upon this baby and our family. We did not have to spend a fortune at appointments (which is what we worry about and even wondered if we can ever afford to grow our family!) and He is really providing for us. Every step of the way. Thank you, Lord. Thank you!

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16 Weeks!

WHAT???

Yes, we are currently expecting our second miracle! It was been 16 weeks and a pretty tough one. I actually wanted to do weekly posts on this pregnancy, but I was feeling very, VERY sick this time round. It has made me unable to work, sleep, eat, and basically not function as usual. I am not exaggerating…

Don’t get me wrong! We are really happy and excited! It’s just that the initial stage was really hard for me. I literally could not function and it made me so sick that I was on bed rest most of the time, literally doing nothing and feeling very useless. It is only now, at around 16 weeks, I am feeling much, MUCH better and slightly back to myself (except that I am still tired most of the time). I could finally eat, smell and cook! I remember thinking to myself, what if this feeling doesn’t go off? What if I am this sick throughout the whole pregnancy? I freaked out! And even thought to myself, that if I have to go through this again, I’m not sure if we will have anymore Quackababies… but deep down, I don’t ever want this as my last J

Anyways, you will see more pregnancy updates here on Mama2Baby again. Hopefully every 2 weeks or so, until the day I give birth and even after! You know… all the exciting stories and experiences to share!

Here’s a glimpse of Quackababy 2 at my 12 week ultrasound.

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In the meantime, our little miracle has turned 2 early this month! I can’t believe how time just flew by and he’s no longer a baby. It blows my mind how much he can speak now and express himself. I am so thankful that he’s such a sweetheart! Leo will always be our Quackababy!

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Stay tuned for more updates! And thank you for staying with Mama2Baby and being so patient!

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Baby all grown up!

Leonidas has officially weaned. YAY 🙂 and BOO 😦 !!!

Leo has been a boob fan for as long as I can remember in his first year. Nothing else could comfort him more than the boob and he’s never rejected it in any way. Around the end of October (then, 15 months old), I decided that I wanted to slowly wean him. Honestly, I wasn’t too serious about it. More like I wanted to just give it a shot and see how he would react. There were some supporting factors though:-

1. I am leaving for a trip for 5 days in Feb 2015 without him. It makes me worry just thinking how he’ll cope without me around. Which means, no nursing before sleep, in the middle of the night, and comforting him with it. He would wake up around 1-2- times at night, with eyes closed, crying… and only the boob can soothe him.

2. I just did not want to pump anymore! I loved my Spectra M1 and it has served me so well. I just didn’t want the hassle to find time/place to pump and worrying that I may not have enough for the next day (I don’t think that 1 bottle of 3oz is enough for him at daycare anyway). Also, the fact that I am more mobile now, travelling to different places for work and pumping/storing is getting really challenging.

So the main reason was because I’m travelling. And so I thought of giving it a try, slowly and steadily. I was going to nurse him at night still until he is ready, probably until early Feb when he turns 18 months. I knew for sure that he’ll still need milk-any kind of milk. I know many moms recommend fresh milk after 1, but he wasn’t a fan. I wasn’t going to deny him so I bought a pack of the basic Dutch Lady/Dumex Dugro 123 for him to try. He rejected it many times. I probably wasted a whole pack of it. Offering him and then throwing it away.

I would prep one bottle of breast milk and one bottle of the formula to daycare daily. Surprisingly, he accepted the formula (given by someone else and not me) and it has been going great for about 2 weeks. I had totally stopped pumping (no more freezer stash), and some days I would prep two servings of formula to daycare as well. Then, he was only getting breast milk at night or whenever he’s with me. I practiced the “Don’t offer, don’t reject” style. For some reason, one day I just decided to give him a bottle at night before bedtime. He rejected it altogether and would cry. He only wanted me. I can’t remember how long it was, but some time in November, he started accepting it. I will make around 5-6oz for him and he would happily take it, and fall asleep, on his own…

That is when my heart started to ache. I knew I wanted him to wean, but didn’t expect it to be so fast. I was targeting by January or something. Not nursing to sleep was a great deal to me. It was our bonding moment and moments for cuddles and snuggles and lotsa kisses. My heart was aching and I was sad. I actually don’t know what to feel or what I was feeling. Having said that, I still did nurse him in the middle of the night between 3-5 am if he wakes up. He would fall back asleep quickly. Slowly, my heart ached less as days pass by with this routine. I would still spend time with him as he is having his bottled milk and I would cuddle and pat him to sleep.

One day, he woke in the middle of the night and started crying. I offered the boob and he would suckle so hard, it started to hurt. It went on for a few days, I felt very uncomfortable and he would not unlatch! I still had milk, but maybe not as much as it was and a slower letdown. I figured he may be thirsty so I prepped a bottle of water for him. I offered it to him if he wakes and he started taking it more frequently and falls back asleep. It has been a week plus, maybe 2, that he’s been taking the water and no boob 😦

TODAY, he woke up happy and cheerful as he has always been. While preparing to go out, I realized that my boobs are probably slowly getting back to it’s normal size now and wondered if I still had milk. So I cradled him in my arms and offered him the boob. Guess what?

He suckled for maybe 2 seconds and then started smiling at me! I tried to offer again and said “nen nen”, he repeated after me and just stared in my eyes. He turned his head away, smiling and showing me a sign that he doesn’t want it anymore. It was TODAY, I knew for sure he has weaned a 100%.

Part of me is really happy, that my little baby has grown up and being more independent. He would take a bottle whenever and now, he actually looks forward to it and sometimes asks for it. I am happy that I can leave him in the care of someone else without concern (sometimes it’s nice to be able to have some time out alone!).

Another part of me is sad. Well, not sad, sad. But bittersweet. It has been a beautiful journey and an experience I will never forget! I am so blessed to be able to breastfeed him fully until 15 months. The process was quicker than I had expected, and less painful as I expected. We have achieved another milestone and it is time for new challenges and finding new ways to bond with him.

Here’s some moments of our breastfeeding journey :’) Thank you son, for the wonderful and precious experience. I love you!

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HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY MY LITTLE MIRACLE!

On 2nd of August 2014, 10:05pm

I can’t believe you are 1! Has it really been 1 year since I gave birth to you? Where has time gone? I still remember the first time I held you in my arms. You were so tiny and fragile. I could not keep my eyes off you for days. I didn’t sleep when I should because all I want is to stare at you, in awe of what a miraculous work the Lord has done!

You have taught me so much this past year. Never would I know I would become the person I am today. I have learn to be patient, to be gentle, to be strong physically even without sleep, to be kind, to take each day at a time, to laugh when I can’t and to smile when I cry. I am sure you will continue to teach me even more this coming year.

Dear Leonidas,

I want you to know that I love you. I love your smile, your laughter and everything about you makes me go crazy! Do you know that I scroll through photos and videos of you multiple times a day when I’m at work? I miss you the second I leave home. I feel like I’ve missed some parts of your life this first year and I’m sorry. Sorry for not being there long enough and for being cranky at times. I promise I will make it up to you very soon. Next month onwards, I will have more time with you every day!  I am looking forward to being free from full time work and just spending more time with you. Even if it is for a few hours, it is very precious. I want to be there for you and do fun activities together. I hope that you feel the same and you will want to be with me too.

This birthday, I pray that God will protect you and guide you; that you will find favor in Him and the people you meet. I want you to know that God is always with you. Never keep your eyes off Him and don’t ever forget that He loves you.

Happy Birthday, Son.

Love,
Mama

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